“But I cannot understand them, it’s all jumbled up in my head and my stomach hurts too much and……”
“Trying to fix everything, sometimes, things need to be left broken, that is the way it is meant to be”
“But…”. (voice tails off)
“STOP!, Stop trying to control it and just live it, even love it, just stop trying to make it perfect, it will never be. That is the beauty of all this, it’s odd, awkward and strange and that’s what makes it unique- once in a lifetime you might say”
“Let me clarify, sunsets are by their nature, pardon the pun-Beautiful, but so are wrinkles, they tell the story of a life, that was laughed, lived and loved, they are what we consider imperfect.
“I have no strength for this anymore, it’s all too difficult.”
“’You are wasting your energy on the mundane and silly, they’re not the reason you are really here, they’re distractions. Relax enjoy the moments, find the beauty in the imperfect.
“Why am I so scared Soul, why is there so much Fear?”
“You are learning new things, new is scary. You cannot stay in this safe place forever, what’s the point in that?”
“Exactly, nothing, so why do you insist on staying put, hanging on to the past, not letting go?”
“I do not know; I really do not know”
“Yes, you do” (said mockingly like a child)
“BINGO, you feel safe now, because you control the narrative, the situations in your life, to a point anyway.
“Hmmm I guess”
“’You guess! If tomorrow you decide to change something, you still can and will feel safe. It is about your perception, everyone can lead the very life they want, how do we do this?”
“ We believe in it, make it happen.”
“Yes, now you got it girl! Now you got it. Take a break now, come back to me tomorrow, we can chat more then. For now, start by seeing the beauty in the imperfect, look at your wrinkles.”